I am so confused right now. Many things are going a lot in my head all at the same time. That is why you guys have to forgive me if I'm a scatterbrain I feel like drowning myself into the quicksand. I want to do something but at the same time am bound to do other things. I want to fight for something that I want to have but I ended up saying goodbye to it. Sometimes you think that if you get this and that you'll be happy for eternity but the irony of it is that it still does not compensate for the hunger that you're feeling.

Am living for almost twenty-four years now and it seems that am walking my everyday life as if am half-asleep. Try to visualize someone who's sleep-walking. Sigh. It's sad. I do not know where this life will head on to. There's so much plans but at the end it would turn to nothing. I do not know, it's like at this age you have to prove something, you find yourself. I am already tired thinking. And here, getting myself stuck in the same place, same situation. And somehow, I hate myself for that. = (

I try to be positive in all the things I am doing. I try to be happy each day. I try to spread happiness, love and hope. In so many ways, I always find myself wondering what will happen next to my life. Yes, long and short term plans are in its queue, but I always think that whatever plans we made for ourselves, sometimes if things are not bound to happen, it would never be.

Beyond all the uncertainties, I still hope that whatever God has in store for me in my earthly life, I am hoping and wishing I would be able to use it wisely and would be able to share it with others. Am hoping that in time I would be able to get answers to my questions.

Good day everyone!